Icky Is Old

Well, my papers was a bitch. I guess that's what you get for studying last minute... haha.

But, it's over! :-) Free till February, can u imagine that? I think our holidays are waaaay too long, but I'm not complaining :-p

Finished my last paper on 5th November, 1 day before my birthday, sounds like awesome timing? Not so much. My last paper was so depressing. But.Oh.Well. At least it's over! And I'm old now. 22 years old. Damn.

Anyways, so I've been thinking of what I should do during this holidays. Obviously I'll need a list of plans that I will regret not doing by the time the next semester starts, it's just tradition! haha.

Let's see:-

1) Get a job (likeliness = low)
2) Join a gym (likeliness = moderate)
3) Work on my music (likeliness = moderate)
4) Watch all the TV shows I've been meaning to watch (likeliness = low)
5) Play Magic (likeliness = very high)
6) Catch up with friends (likeliness = high)
7) Start the scratching class (likeliness = low)
8) Go on a holiday (likeliness = confirmed)
9) Drive up to Penang with friends for PTQ (likeliness = high)
10) Go on a trip with Kel (likeliness = moderate)
11) Perform (likeliness = low)
12) Be exposed to sunlight (likeliness = unknown)

Can't think of anything else, hmmm...

Anyways, things are pretty good right now and I hope it stays that way! I know I've been quite a loner for a while now and it's 10000% my fault, but I plan to change that cos I don't think this lifestyle is very good for me, haha

I was just thinking of what Zac said the other day, "Icky, I won't let you turn into an MTGO (Magic the Gathering Online) geek, you're too cool for that!" haha, well, he's right, and I plan to be more productive!

Let's see if it works out :-p

Btw, my money from the check is still not banked yet. You know how long it takes to clear the cheque? 1 month. No kidding. Something about having to clarify with the Australian bank and convert the US$ or whatever... boo hoo, it takes 2 seconds to call, seriously. Oh well.

Take care and have a nice day :-)

Icky The Cardboard Geek

It's here! Finally!

I got an email from FedEx yesterday saying that a package for me was scheduled to arrive today and when the details said "GP Manila" I knew it was my cheque!

So I got home just now and there it was, and even though I know that I won and I knew that it was coming, it gave me a sense of realism when I held the cheque in my hand. I thought to myself, "I won $500 for playing a card game!" muahahahahahaha :-p

It's a different feeling, for me at least, after winning a tournament, and after receiving the prize. When I won a 160GB Apple TV in a side event tournament during Pro Tour KL, after winning the last round, it was exciting, but after holding the Apple TV in my hands, it was like "whoa!"

I think that it's the whole prospect of, as I mentioned earlier, getting rewarded for playing a game that I love. Thinking back to my first tournament, I have definitely gone a long way.

Call me a loser if you like, but I've been playing Magic for 10 years now! 10 freaking years!

I may be a super cardboard geek, but at least I'm happy :-)

My first "success" of winning something "big" was a side event at Grand Prix KL, I think it was in 2002. It was nothing great, just a little side event, but I had gotten my 1st ever 1st place finish! The prize was just a box of boosters (RM320 retail) but it was just so exciting for me!

I'm happy at where I am right now, and although I don't expect to be a full time pro player (because there's just no money in that), I do hope to be playing in higher level events.

Things I have to do before I can quit playing Magic:-

- Win a Nationals Championship trophy
- Top 8 a Grand Prix

- Top 8 a Pro Tour

- Qualify and play in Worlds under the National Team

Ambitious? You bet, but if I don't set a goal, I won't achieve anything!

Oh well, current goal right now? Pass my exams... hahaha

Take care and have a nice day!

Kau Pijak Hatiku Lagi

Waktu kita sama sambut hari lahir
Ku berikan dia hadiah bunga

Cantik, engkau memang cantik
Izinkan aku menatap wajahmu lagi
Cantik, engkau memang cantik
Izinkan aku menatap wajahmu lagi

Kau pijak hatiku lagi
Kau pijak hatiku lagi
Kau pijak hatiku lagi
Kau pijak hatiku lagi

Tinggi harapanku buatmu
Tak ku sangka ia hanya setengah jalan
Jika memori kita disimpan di dalam cakera
Kan ku mainkan sampai bila-bila

Cantik, engkau memang cantik
Izinkan aku menatap wajahmu lagi
Cantik, engkau memang cantik
Izinkan aku menatap wajahmu lagi

Kau pijak hatiku lagi
Kau pijak hatiku lagi
Kau pijak hatiku lagi
Kau pijak hatiku lagi

Pijak hatiku lagi
Pijak hatiku lagi
Kau pijak hatiku
Pijak hatiku lagi

Empty Decorations

Just read her blog. Once again I feel like I'm at her mercy and disposal. I don't feel like I deserve to be in this position once again.
When I first found out and asked her to just please end it, somehow I was the one who had to try harder with my gestures.
When I couldn't forgive her for what she did because it was just too difficult, I don't know how I ended up being the guy asking for forgiveness.
Once again I don't know how I ended up being in this position. Somehow, this time, she's the one finding it hard, for what? To be with me. Now it's a phase. I stood by through it all, through everything, but still I'm being put right here in this position, where I do not want to be.

You may wonder why I put up through all of it, and my answer is simple, that's what love does to you, but I do not know where this love of mine will take me. I fought for what I believed, for the feelings I feel so deeply, so it cuts me deep to be losing to her "growing up".

Perhaps my luck's run out. Maybe she's grown up and realized that I'm nothing special and she could do better then me. What do I have anyways? Just an overweight card game addict with 4 papers waiting to be failed.

She said she's gonna try, and I'm gonna wait and see...

Lagu Untukmu

Tiada bintang
Dapat menerangkan hati yang telah dicelah
Bagaiku lumpuh tak mampu berdiri
Aku tetap begini
Takkan berubah kerna aku tetap aku
Dan lalu rindumu bukanlah aku

Guna hati, akal dan fikiranmu
Berbeza
Kau dan juga aku
Dua hati yang tak mungkin bersatu

Apakah aku
Hanya boneka yang sering engkau mainkan
Yang dikawal oleh jari-jarimu
Ku punya hati dan perasaan
Pernahkah engkau fikirkan
Cukup cukuplah oh cukuplah

Guna hati, akal dan fikiranmu
Berbeza
Kau dan juga aku
Dua hati yang tak mungkin bersatu

Tak faham tak tahan
Sabarku tak tertahan
Melayan sikapmu perawan
Berbeza-berbeza
Kau dan aku berbeza
Kita memang tak serupa
Bebaskan bebaskan
Ku ingin dilepaskan
Kita tidak sehaluan
Cukuplah sudahlah
Sampai di sini saja
Hubungan kita berdua

Guna hati, akal dan fikiranmu
Berbeza
Kau dan juga aku
Dua hati yang tak mungkin bersatu

Sometimes...

How hard could it be? You asked the same of me so you must know how this feels.
Why is it so important?

Why?

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KAMI

And so I wrote an entry yesterday, but it was so depressing that I decided to just close my PC and go out instead. I like going out alone occasionally, so what if I'm a loner sometimes...

So I went to Pyramid and decided that a movie might help cheer me up. Then I remembered that KAMI The Movie starts playing at the cinema first day of raya! I immedietely decided that I'm gonna watch it, cos, I was looking forward to it, and, well, I barely know anyone who'd be happy in watching it with me, haha (c'mon people, support the local industry!)

I'll admit, I have not been watching the TV series much, in fact, I think I watched it like once, but I really liked it that one time I watched it, and I'm always up for checking out a Malaysian made movie that looks different. So I went in and watched it.

And I loved it!

I'm not gonna go on and write a short summary, but, if you've got the time and chance, go check it out! I'm happy to see that our movies are getting better and so is our music industry :-)

Politics, Racism and all that bullshit aside, I love this country!

My hari raya has been pretty good as well, I'm having a good time (and alot of good food!)

Although I'm a little late, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to everyone! To everyone who I've done something wrong to, or who hates me (namely everyone on my previous list...), please forgive me... sempena Aidilfitri ini, ku pohon maaf zahir dan batin.

Take care and have a nice day.